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2026 07 17

wow.

Once your daemon becomes attracted to another, they synchronize. This can be overtaking at first, and somehow hints of your own daemon — the primary daemon or the version previous to this successive mutant daemon — can arise and make its presence aware to you. How can my former daemon lay/lie in wait while also mutually attracted to another?

Party at my psychoanalysts house. I arrive with Masa, Sonae, and Ben. I think it's for his sobriety. He’s serving beers and canned espresso martinis. I see a woman has poured into a small glass. She has white nails and is smoking a cigarette.

that’s fucked up

I am a failing automaton because I cower in the face of feigning anxiety for others to understand me as one who feels as if it's all going to be lost on me.

My Adlerian ass artist life.

When a body of connective reactors, interruptors, and producers becomes possessed to finally enter a network, to finally make itself known — it becomes aware. It thus makes itself known through its libido for awareness.